My Mental Space

So it seems it’s been about a month and a half since my last post, something I didn’t intend to happen, but life has a habit of coming up and needing attention when you least expect it. So how have the last few weeks been?

Mainly, I’ve been dealing with work for the most part, showing up for work 95% of the time, aside from days I’ve not felt like myself and when I’ve been sick, which is what I am right now. Sinuses are a mess and coughs have been an ongoing frustration, matched with a hoarse voice, and then throw in the fact that it’s been busy because of the holidays and Black Friday, and you have a struggle to deal with. I actually almost missed 2 days in a row, the first one being a half day and the second one being a full day out. Before that even became a factor, I was dealing with a lot of worrying and discomfort because I kept worrying about what people think about my work and wanting to do my best despite not having the chances and opportunities to make sales and show what I can do. I’ve overcome that thought process a great deal, though it still lingers to a degree.

One other thing that’s popped up is trying very hard to get the house ready to sell. The painting is just about finished, but the next part is cleaning out the house and getting it looking right for folks to come in and evaluate if they want to buy it or not. I need to sell it ASAP because I need to take out the majority of the bills from it and make life easier for me and my partner.

One bright spot is I’ve regained the ability to take care of myself by playing my games on consoles and PC. I’ve been playing WoW again, among other things, and while it’s easy to lose track of time and lose a little sleep, it’s easy to lose track of time and relax my brain and focus on something other than the stressful aspects of my life.

So Christmas is coming in a couple of weeks, and I’ll be one year older very soon. I’m fine with my age and such, I just need to take better care of myself in general because I worry about being one of those early death stories one hears about so often these days. I have definite plans and intentions for 2026 for myself and my life, and I just need to follow through with them so I can continue getting better and growing more accustomed in my own skin and living my life more contently. My first hurdle will be the house sale. Once that goes through, I’ll be able to focus on myself and my needs with less strain and a more personal touch.

I’ll be back with a more substantial post soon, right now I’m feeling tired and want to go lay down and rest. Be good to yourselves.